November Sucks

First let me say did you know that Novemeber is Lung Cancer Awareness Month? No? Not many people do.

This month is really bad for my family.

At least on my mom's side. May is bad for my dad's side.

Last year on Thanksgiving (which happened to be Robbie's birthday) my aunt died of lung cancer.

My grandma passed away last Friday, Nov 7th. She was diagnosed with COPD years ago. She's at peace now. No more suffering. No more struggling to breathe. That doesn't help the selfish feelings I have of wanting her here with me.

Now my uncle, my mom's youngest sibling, is in the hospital, and they don't think he'll live to Thanksgiving.

Do you know how bad this makes the holidays???

Then in Dec is the 1 year anniversary of my step dad's death. This is coming up way to fast. Bringing back way to many memories. Not just for me, but for the kids too.

Plus now my mom is in South Carolina. Now can't just pick up and drive up to see her one weekend like we could when she was living in Oregon.

She seems happier out there, which is great, I'm so happy for her. I'm just sad that she's so far away and I can't see her as often as I would like.

Remember when families used to live in the same town forever? Sometimes I wish things were still that simple.